One Year at the Bridge
My sweetest girl,
Grief stops time so I can’t decide if this year has been a lifetime or a blink. The hole in my heart remains although skinned over now so the wind no longer whistles through my chest. Something of an improvement.
I miss you every day, even the days I’m not consciously aware of it, I miss you. I told you I would always come for you – this time it’s just going to be a while (inchallah) before I get there. I know you’ll be waiting for me.
Almost ten years we were together and I can’t begin to count the ways you saved me, daily. I lost so much of myself so long ago. I had been gathering up scraps before you found me but you took my hand and sniffed out the deeply buried pieces and it all went so much faster. You saw me, as me, when no one else did – with love and without judgment.
And how wonderful you took over the conversation with Stacy. More than (the badly needed) help with Roxy, I needed to hear from you. I needed the reassurance that you are still here with me, that we’re still connected. I know I shouldn’t doubt that, have no reason to, but without seeing your goofy smile daily, it’s hard to remember some days. I have made a start of letting go of the guilt but it will still be a while before I forgive myself. Another lesson for me, one of the tougher ones I must say. You deserved much better of me.
Bring your dog to work day
I wrote this looking at the picture of you, the one on my desk that was taken one day when you were under my desk, dust and boxes and all. You were happy being here and all I can see is love for me, for life, for dogness. It really can and is that simple, for all of us. Humans are, for the most part, simply really bad at it. That’s why we keep y’all around, we’re trying to learn.
You made me a better human and a much, much better dog mom (Roxy thanks you for that).
I love you, my sweet girl. I always have and always will.
Sending you big hugs today, Teri. Isa is a special spirit and I just know deep in my heart that she is forever at your side.
<3 Jeanette, Angel Boone & Boone's Earthly Sidekick (Tuck) <3
Hugs Teri! It’s especially hard on these “special” days isn’t it? I’m glad you got the confirmation that you needed to know Isa is still with you and always will be. Knowing my boys all remain with me in spirit has always been very comforting to me and has allowed me to go ahead with loving a new furface as they taught me love was meant to be shared with others as a tribute to them. Isa apparently knew you would need a challenge and sent Roxy lol. You’ve excelled at that challenge just as Isa knew you would! Well done Isa is proud of you!
That video of Isa giving you her wiggle butt happy smile greeting….sooooo sweet!! What a treasured video!
Had to laugh at bit though. Thkse are the same steps that Roxy sat on and growled at you for days if you came near her! Yes j deedy, Isa sent you a handful!
The photo of Isa at work really captures so much of her “sweetness” in that beautifully marked face with a bit of “se ior coloring”..
You write with such heart when you write about Isa. Your loving bond is so evident.
I am soooo glad Isa butted in on that phone call! I still get goose bumps when I think about how she connected with you! 🙂 So Isa/Teri specific!
Thank you for letting us honor Isa with you day. She really, really is loved by us to…as is her Mom!
Love and light
Sally and Alumni Happy Hannah and Merry Myrtle and Frankie too!
Hugs Teri. Thinking of you. I know these days are especially hard. I can’t believe its been one year. It seems just like yesterday. I am glad Isa talked to you the other day. It’s nice to know they are around huh.
xoxoxoxo
Michelle & Angel Sassy